welcome to the big league shoot

Credit to: KRISKIDD.

recycled benefit drop off shoot

Credit to: Sabrina A.

I feel

like shit.
horrible.
lost.
alone.
at fault.
left behind.
cared.
avoided.

I wish

I was bit better at "talking".

or, somehow my expressions would simply be noticed through any sort of my writings: blog, aim, message, etc..  That way, I wouldn't ever have to talk and I would never lose someone again.  I didn't know expressing my feelings weren't the same thing as talking. I'm so bad it. Shit, I can't even write.  None of this makes sense now does it?  Let's just say I feel like shit, I feel alone, I feel like its nearly impossible to say what crosses through mind.  But  I am sorry. And I am trying, but its hard when I feel like I'm always being lied too, or unwanted, or even alienated at times.   I feel like I'm some sort of trophy or something.   Sounds good though, doesn't it?  It doesn't feel good.  I mean, one minute, to the right group of people I''m being shown off, but another minute to another group of people, I'm just there. It's hard.  And, it hurts.  I'd probably never say it, but it does, it really does.

I don't feel like I know much anymore other than the fact that I feel completely horrible.  I'm so tired of regretting the things I don't say.  Mentally, I know how to fix it, but I just can't physically speak with my mouth.

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Email me at: www.jessicanary@hotmail.com

Bob Marley:

" You may not be her first, her last, or her only. she loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there."

Photoshoot

The entire event was so amazing and entertaining. World Class Youth had a live DJ, refreshments, and a wonderful team <3. I'm so excited for next month's event! And, too see the outcome of my pictures. I was sooo lucky! In addition to having a regular photo shoot as everyone else, I was able to take pictures with their models, and Mikey Gasher asked me to take a picture holding up a sign that said "going nowhere fast".

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EVENT: Welcome to the Big League
HOSTED BY: World Class Youth
ON: Sunday, March 22nd
ROAMING PHOTOGRAPHER: Lenore M.

backyard shoot

so, my photographer, D, came to my house. We were going to find a spot to take a shoot, and then we decided my backyard would be a good place. even my baby sister got in the pictures. ahhh, I loved it [:

He makes me knows how to make me laugh and smile even when I'm feeling vulnerable. <3

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Browzer ran away...
He knows the way home, and he's still not home. He's been missing since about 10am..
I'm scared his hurt..I miss him...I love him..