blahh

I'm at the point where I'm so scared. I know what I want and I know what makes me happy. I just don't know to say it or express it. I've always had a problem of speaking my mind and just practically saying how I feel. I've been working on it, but it doesn't seem like anything has change. And, now I might just lose something special. I don't know what to do. I love my life, I swear I do. I love going to school, working, dancing and cheerleading, and where I'm going. I'm not confused with whether I want to be 'in a relationship' or not. I just don't know how to express it. But maybe its not me. Well, maybe it is me. I don't know. However, I do know this blog does not make any sense. I'm just throwing things at the top of my head. I have a headache from thinking so hard. Maybe we just have two different lifestyles, or want different things. Let's face it, my life revolves around cheer and dancing. It takes most of my time, but I don't wanna give them up...I love what I do....

omg..blahhh, just a whole lot of blahhh.
I need a break, a real break.